I finally decided to update since i'm so bored. Well Lenny is officially pissin me off. He never calls and we never really hang out and when we do hang out its at like two in the morning and well im tired of it so i think i should break up with him. Oh yea and i got a r and its blue and its mine. So yea next week is my birthday which i guess is cool. Not really that excited hough.Ummmmmmmmmmm..........life is boring........lalalalalalala...............going to find something to do.

YYYYAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYY!!! schools finally out and all i have done so far was watch movies and sleep. God y do do all guys have to be ASSHOLES and everytime I no a guys lieing to me y the fuck do i pretend to believe him when in fact i no hes lieing.Damn I really like him and i don't like many ppl. so this just fuckin sucks but the sad thing is i will probably continue to c him becuz even though i no he's lieing bout shit i'll still pretend to believe him. y can't he just tell me the truth. FFFFUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

I'm so happy chris is coming over 2day.......he is so cool and thinkin bout him just drives me crazy and I no he has a g/f but he said he was goin to break up w/ her........so yea i'm all esxcited cuz he is comin over.........g2g....PEACE

My parents are being fucking assholes. I can't stand them and I'm bored so....

For the longest time
No one knew
I had no one to relate to

I was left all alone
Just talking on the phone
Never aloud to leave
For they thought I would deceive

They stopped trusting me
An wouldn't set me free
Yelled at me every night
I never yet won a fight

Nothing physical was used
Still it is abuse
It clusters inside so deep
All this pain,
I can not keep
Nothing to lose, nothing to gain
And in the end all there is pain.

So 2day was another wonderful day at school............let's recap I GOT A SHITLOAD OF MAKE UP WORK. This totally sux but i guess it could be worse. Anyways the guy i like is comin over 2nite and im sneakin out...hehe.....i can't wait he's so hott (that's right that is hott w/ 2 T's cuz he's extra hott) so yea now that im in like love with this guy im gonna go cuz he is all i can think bout....so PEACE OUT

Being Sick Sucks
I haven't been to school in a week and I feel like i'm going to die. Yesterday i went to the doctors and then he sent me to this lab where i had to get blood work done. Then I came home and slept. So yea...yesterday was pretty eventful. Then today guess wat i did.......I SLEPT. Being sick really sucks. I can't even eat anything cuz everything tastes so bad. Like i tried to eat an m&m and it tasted more like old sour milk so now i guess i won't be able to eat anything. A cheeseburger and fries from McDonalds sounds really good rite bout now. Well gonna go bac to sleep

Stressed out. AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Had another great day at school. Seriously it wasn't that bad cuz suprisingly no tests today. My morning started out pretty bad though. I was walking to class and Lenny broke my sandal so then I had to go without shoes for the rest of the day, but it's all good cuz I took my friends socks so i didn't have to go around bare foot. Then in 2nd block i guess i had fallen asleep on my notes so when i woke up I had writing on my forehead. That was pretty much all that happened today, so I guess today was quite eventful.

I just got home from work like 10 minutes ago and i have a shitload of h/w to do. I doubt I will get any of it done but, whatever. Oh yeah and just for dith i will post one of my happy poems so here it is:



We are stoners proud and true,
we smoke weed and grow it too,
in the end we'll all be high,
maybe we'll even die,
Party hardy rock n' roll,
Smoke a joint,
and pack a bowl.

I took a personality disorder test and here are my results:

Personality Disorder Test Results

Paranoid 54%
Schizoid 38%
Schizotypal 46%
Antisocial 58%
Borderline 66%
Histrionic 74%
Narcissistic 30%
Avoidant 62%
Dependent 74%
Obsessive-Compulsive 46%